mama

you know the groups that moms listen to. the groups that they randomly come across when passing through the spanish section of channels - & then they end up buying their cd, dvd & whatever else they come across? my moms group is il divo, since im pretty open to anything - i find their music pretty good. theres one song that they have called mama & its in english. i've know the words for years now, but after looking up the lyrics last night - i started to cry. this isn't the first time i've cried to this song , but everytime i do - i realize how much i love my mom . how much shit my family goes through and how much she puts up with . how much she has to deal with & how much we put her through . bills she pays when she has no money , bullshit shes put herself through because we needed a roof, and regardless how much i've fucked up in my life - she was there 2 minutes later . mothers ; yes i know they're suppose to - but there are a lot i know that don't . i am so fortunate to have a family that has so many god damn problems yet some how we're closer than thieves . a part of me thinks its cause of my culture, but i really think its cause of my mom . we've been through a lot - we've been homeless, seperated, broke and paying for this in dimes, nickels and pennies . & some how shes managed to always keep a house, keep the house warm & food in the cabinet even if it wasn't the whopper from burger king i wanted . we're spoiled - i'm beyond spoiled . i get almost whatever i want , but i am thankful - i know how hard my family has worked to get where we are now . & even though we scrape by , we make it & thats about as much as i can ask for . so my cousin & i were talking about our futures & we want to see in our lives . i wanna go places , do something big with my life , make lots of money & pay all of my bills on time & in advance . i wanna have sliding spaceship looking doors and a jeep . but before any of this - i know where my loyalty stands . mom you've done everything for me . when you're low on money , & we're out you still ask me if i want anything to eat , you still ask me if i want this lap top or this new something even though i know you don't need to be spending anything on me , you know that some of my thoughts for the future are pretty much endless but you support whatever i want to do even though im sometimes lazy . so what im trying to say is , mama i hope this makes you smile - i hope you're happy with my life . at peace with every choice i've made & how i've grown along the way . cause i know you believe in all of my dreams and i owe it all to you mama .

twentyten is the new shit .

school;

i wanna go to school full time. i want to have classes at the college as well as online classes. i wanna have a backpack with books, notebooks, a binder with a pencil holder inside. i want stickies to note out text books, highlighters to paragraph pages of pointless text but somehow relates to that fridays test. i wanna wear my hair curly & in a pony tail in my jeans & a sweatshirt with my hoops & my amc 3d glasses with the lenses poked out.

 

work;

i like my job. not exactly my ideal job but expanding my horizons, trying new shit & doing shit people would never expect me to do? thats the story. i work with four girls and boss. i barelly know one of the girls but the other three girls are pretty legitimate. one girl is amazingly nice & i can always ask her something and i never feel stupid about it. i think all of them are really good at their jobs; but one of them is crazy to watch when she has a line & the other girl i just love working with her. and the boss is indeed the boss, im pretty open to her & even though shes semi intimidating simply because shes the boss, i like her. *i had a fall out with one of the girls so i feel like tension - but thats gonna go away sooner or later because truth is that i cared about your situation and wanted to help. somewhere in there i thought you were fine (& i most definitley regret telling you.) and in the end, well this is the end. it wasn't that big of the deal to me just i one, don't like tension, two, i like my chai tea lattes, three, i thought you were a really nice person even though you came at me with that fuck off attitude & biiiiiiitch face all the time. eh anyways, happy birthday.

 

on another note though; i might be getting a second job.

so by december 31, 2010 ; i will be a fulltime student & employee.

i would like to have two part time jobs or a job that pays GOOOD!

around my schedule for school & also benefits and such.

 

twentyten is the new shit.

 

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sooo; im chillin on the twin (UGH !) with the pitbull fighting for space & comfort. just finished with my 1 day of work haha & im off till laterr this week, ooh what homie. sooo ! next week im registering for school FULL TIME & im working PART TIME right now. im thinking about taking up another job part time too. i wanna fill up my schedule but still have time to take two naps during the week, finish my homework & get a head start on next weeks project n shit. sooner than later, i wanna transfer to SAI & major in graphic designing, as well as take classes to get my degree in psychology. so i wanna major in two fields. sounds hard, but im goin hard on this homie. so till the game ends, till the clock stops. im gon post up on the top spot livin the life.