i'm happier than i've been in awhile. i'm fully concentrated on me and what i need to do to accomplish the goals i have set for myself . so if none of my readers knew, now you know - i did not graduate from high school, the whys & how comes are irrelevent. all i know now is that i need to get my diploma & continue my education into a career that fufill what i want to do with my life whether it be a career that makes a lot of money or a career that just might get me by . i am not miss cleo & highly doubt i can break into that line of work, so whether one career will live in the state of our economy & the downfall of this country is beyond me - all i know is that if in 2012 this world is suppose to come to an end, im gonna die doing something with my life. nothing can stop me, im unstoppable. i will go far & i cannot be held back any longer. head up, shoulders back & i vow to put my mom in a beach house. & thats how that ends.
i've got me a girl & i call her my baby. definitley knew that when you walked into my life you were gonna be somebody to me, didn't know what or how - but knew you would be. you have that presence i love having in my life everyday. you make a difference when you're around. whether we're busy doing something & i see you for a moment or if we actually get a break in our schedules to spend time together & all i wanna do is lean in & kiss you. in the past month, you've made me happier than i've been in awhile. nowwww, lets not joke - i didn't neccesarily like you when i met you, idknow what set me off - but i honestly sat back & thought shes got way too much damn attitude. but after giving you a fair chance because i was in a bad mood that week & sitting down to talk with you - i realized you were somebody who was just tryna make shit work, bull fit & crap meet. & with that alone - i knew you were gonna be somebody i wanted in my life. & now you're my baby & i'm crazy about you. it was the first time i put myself on the line & walked into the dark for something i knew nothing about. i have the gut feeling that i am five steps ahead of where i should be with us, & it makes me a bit uncomfortable sometimes. then you say something & it makes me feel like im in the right place. i get scared & you grab my hand & pull me towards you. i feel uneasy & you turn around n pull me in for a kiss. when shits hard, you make it easier to breathe when you come around & honestly, that scares me. i love the way you make me feel - but i don't want to be this crazy about you till i'm sure about how you feel. cause my heads screaming get a grip girl, unless you're dying to cry your heart out. but damn you're making it so easy to love the way you say my name, squeeze my hand & kiss me baby.