toy soldiers.

breyana, you're honestly a trip to watch. i take that back, you're something beyond it. you're my own cousin but my blood boils when you're brought into the conversation, my teeth clench because the temptation to fight is DYING to rely on your face for relief. you're my family so like said before i held you to such a higher level than i did ever anyone else. before urenna, before anyone - i held you higher because 2 things, we're hawaiian & you were my ohana. ohana means family, & family means no one is left behind or forgotten but i believe you've forgotten. forgotten the meaning of the blood that runs your veins & the principals we ARE to live through because of the blood we carry & the family we come from. but like many girls you fell to the insanity of giving up everything for love. love? is not him fucking three other girls. love is not ya'll conversationg & him crying. crying? you're either as dumb as the world claims or a bump on a log to fall for that bullshit. i no longer have to feel like im always being questioned about what im doing and why im doing things that way . i no longer feel like i have to fight every single day . no longer have to fight? or be questioned? one lets clear the air on your lies. have to fight what? we had one conversation dipshit, & that was FAR from a fight. question what you're doing & why you're doing it - if you're lying to me ima' question you get caught up & call it a good day. i never put the noose to your throat, i never held you for answers at gun point. idk nor do i care about what anyone else did, but all i know is that i didn't deserve this. that conversation was purely to ask you whats going on & make sure you're keeping your head up right. but you thought you knew what was gonna go down, you thought you knew about all of it & all of that. so i called you countless amount of times & texted you even more, did you reply? of course not. family friend texts you & then all of a sudden she gets a reply back from her - but of course she couldnt text ME back but could tanya. yeahhhh...ur a liar. you're as fake as it gets & about as low as it gets. you go far to build up that bullshit of a wall of yours cause you know you couldn't stand standing to my face about the truth about the facts of your situation. if you was as mentally strong as you claim to be, you wouldnt have chickened out. bring everyone, your brothers girl too if yah need to. to feel like you have some fucking security. unless you feel better with your LITTLE brothers friends standing up for you? see thats the thing. you have no backbone, & if you claim you do its as bendable as gymnist. claim to have made the golden choice. claim to have done no wrong & you follow through with ur shit then stand up for yourself. stand tall & let the whole world know breyana knows what shes doing. but the only problem is you cant. ill go toe to toe with anyone, simply because i know my mind i know my thoughts & i act like a girl GROWING into a woman. you're going backwards. you do what you do, & ima do me. but best believe, you know me TOO well to think this shits over. i'm coming, my only advice is you be ready cause you know i'm right & the day it all comes down - you'll realize youre nothing but another bitch to drive him places, pussy to fuck & trick with money to get him shit. open ur eyes, ur short not stupid - well.