to fall in love...

is to truly make everything of you - from your mentality & emotional stability to one's soul & spirit vulnerable. when you make yourself vulnerable - you give one your all & more of you for self satisfaction as well as unconsciously expecting love in return. i've done this. to fall in love... is to truly give one meaning, one reason, one conscious notification that your heart is truly in someone else's hands now. to fall in love...is to give someone your heart with all your love, appreciation, strength, mentality, emotions, respect and caring in there and hope they handle your heart with care....to fall in love is to feel jealousy, rage, disrespect, pain, stress, unappreciation, mess, fail tests & possibly be depressed. but if the love is so strong...it has the power to lift you to unexplainable levels of happiness as well as pull you down to the dwells of hell.



i think falling in love everyone must realize that this was not my intention. i did not wake up one morning, and decide to fall or decide for this to be my repercussion of my decisions or my feelings. for me, as strong as i may come across, i am fairly weak - when it comes to my emotions. fuck with my emotions, & one can truly fuck me up. (& i mean this in the most down to earth way).

"keep yah head up soulja"

ughh...been hearing that STRAIGHT for idk how many years. ever since my sophomore year i swear things been dumpin' left and right - what goes up has def'initley come down - & i'm learning to learn from these mistakes and situations that i have been dealt. for those of you who know me - know that i am not the most religious person in the book. i strongly believe in God, and all of his wonders. But its a miracle the day that you find me in church. but! its not that i love him any less, but i guess his love for me hasn't exactly taken that big toll yet - but i know it will - one day when i'm ready and he knows i'm ready. :)