at the end of the day.

at the end of the day, dont kiss me then tell me no.
at the end of the day, dont squeeze me then tell me no.
at the end of the day, dont lemme eat you up then tell me no.
at the end of the day, point blank - jus don't tell me no.
especially when last week, the week & the month before that.
you told me yes.

damn lil momma..

damn lil momma...YOU'RE KILLIN THE GAME.

She's a blessing that got a murder touch. Skins soft like she just came out the johnson johnson factory. She goes undetected. Stays well below the radar but makes her appearences. Her confidence is sexy with attitude that puts her on the edge. If you're ever looking through your phone & pass by a name & think damn she'd be a keeper - this is her! in every aspect homie. Shes wise beyond her years, truth is hidden in between her words but passion is more than ever present. First time we got into our first conversation, she was someone i knew would be somebody important in my life. She doesn't say much but says more than expected by anyone. The way she uses her words, and the way her vocal chords wrap beautifully around every syllable she spits...ahh makes my nerves stand & my spine shake at her demand. Shes damn near perfection with an effortless effort. If you know her, you don't understand her. But if you understand her, you'll know why im giving this lady, NOT girl - the upmost respect, if nothing else - a standing ovation.

happy birthday mommy & aunty julaine..

this is for you aunty julaine.

happy belated birthday.

i love you & i can't wait till we see each other again.

july 25, 1955 - march 8, 2007

updated

lord knows i miss you. i know you're in a better place, but i'd give anything just to see your face, to hear your voice - it still gives me the shakes. *for the readers a piece of information. julaine espanio, aka my aunty ju is my mothers twin sister. their birthday just passed this saturdy (july 25th) & it was yet extremely hard trying to go about not screaming "happy birthdy aunty ju" & not waking up to my mom on the phone with her on the back deck talking about their age, memories & how dumb my brothers and i have been between the last time they talked and now. you know the usual.* i woke up saturday (july 25th for those slow readers) to my mom tapping my shoulder "you don't have to drive out there, we're taking both trucks." familiar voice from my floor came in, it was breyana "but can i still drive aunty?" "yeah if you like" "okay" "ona we're going soon so get up" "okay" the time nor the day had registered in my head - but i knew that there was a party that night - just not that it was her birthday but i didnt forget - it was just too damn early. so i got up & walked pass her room "why are you watching aunty julaines video?" referring to the video above. why did i ask that? because everytime this video plays, there isnt a dry eye in the room. then it dawned on me as i walked into the kitchen, its her birthday. shit. damnit i felt like i forgot, but i knew i didnt just i was still a walking manican up until that point. i walked into her room as she was putting her makeup bag into her duffle thingy "HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY" "thank you" as she hugged me and kissed me on my forehead. it was less than 60 seconds, but it was 60 seconds that i will never forget. i continued on with my morning, and jumped in the shower. i came out brushing my hair and changed my clothes, came out of my room to be met with that familiar song the prayer by ho'okena. i looked into moms office, and saw the video playing (above). i stopped dead in my tracks and went into her office. sat down on the chair and watched it. it was a immediate, i could still feel the sheets of her bed being too damn hot, and not being able to find a cool spot in your bed and turning to you with some square 4 inches x 4 inches thing with a neck strap with red and white writing on it. i remember thinking what the hell is this, it looked like a mini speakerphone. no buttons, nothing but a strap that went around your neck. (later i found out it was a air cleaner - how the hell it worked is beyond me though.) i turned over to you and flipped through the channels. GOLDEN GIRLS. you were sleeping pretty silently, i was thinking the worst for some reason for about 5 minutes, but i stopped. you had your hand on the pillow that was the space taker between me and you. i looked at your fingers, your skin, your arms, your neck, your chin, your nose, your eyes, your forehead, your cheeks...your face. everythings changed...your whole appearence...it wasnt the aunty julaine i knew...but your voice still had the sterness in it. everything opposite of mom, attitude, sassy, and a little jest. you still had an opinion about anything and everything but your words slurred so much, sometimes i got scared. i held your hand and you woke up, i looked at your eyes, they were the same eyes - same eyes i saw at the boardwalk. another memory ill never forget. playing rock paper scissors with uncle tyrone for either the water log ride or bumper cars. bumper cars won - sucker. i forget wat i was in - but u were in overalls. white tee with ur hair how it normally was half up half down with ur bangs like moms and the little bump. u had your glasses on, and your gold watch with white tennis shoes and ankle high white socks. i remember sitting in your red car and coming over the hill and seeing all the big roller coasters as i was chomping on strawberry bubblicious gum. fast forward....i still cant bring myself to realize that you're no longer here on earth with me, even though its been 2 years...i still cry when i hear your song, or think about you. i love you & i promise you...ill make you smile.

Happy 54th Birthday Mommy & Aunty Julaine.

baby sister issssss ..

BABY GIRL IS WRITING NOW ON BLOGGER

look forward to her writings here @

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'best ive ever had' part two

the baddest in the game did it again...we sat & kicked it. i really didnt plan for it all to pop off again, i really wanted to just watch tv - didnt have any pre-planned shit at all and thats on my fam. but plies said it best my hands tend to get me into trouble and this time they dug a little deeper on you than i thought i ever would. i love kissing you as much as you know i do - but what you did in that bed was the craziest game plan i ever seen. so once again baby ; please excuse my hands..leaning on you watching tv, with my mind resting on your thighs which noted: are the softest thighs i've ever felt. & ive felt a lot of thighs. my hands traveled around the globe & made their way to one of my favorite places on your body. i turned over on you & kissed ur stomach. played with your belly button & licked up to right below your bra strap baby soft skin, smooth complexion & tasted like sweet strawberries... "dont give me a hickie" fingertips on ur cheek and one found its way to your lips. she bites. i start sucking on your lip as you playing lollipop on my fingertips. goin' a little longer & goin a little harder..i wasnt on my a game and i was goin till i felt your lungs at their largest, vocal chords at their sharpest & your thighs feelin so tight i just might...sike. phone was vibrating my nightstand, tv was comin in every now & then but i was steady focused on your breathing . fingertips made their exit & then it happened, girl put her game face on & was playin that chase game - had me all over them thighs. went down south & ate my breakfast lunch & dinner. put the muscle to work & she squeezed hands, was sharing her lungs with the stuffing in my pillows. went up quick to be met with the softest lips in the world . played some cat & mouse with the bottom lips, but cha' got on quick & had me beggin like a kid for ice cream change. my hands was up on yah lovely lady lumps & tongue was dippin & dodgin between yah bites but the temperature was still rising. yah phones ringing we both knew who it was, knew she was suppose to answer it - but she didnt answer, so i went a little faster..i made a joke & put you on the spot. betcha can't. girl took my hand & put them in places i aint never seen before..grabbed my hair & the back of my neck & pulled me down like crazy..talking in between kissing, kissing in between syllables & sucking in between paragraphs....grabbed yah thighs tough, pulled me to your chest, she never said she was the best - i dont like that cocky stuff but my girl got confidence - & her confidence in satisfying me all the while satisfying herself can make the baddest muthafucka turn a new leaf..damn phones going at it again...she biting my lip, im sucking on hers..i lick her tongue, she sucks on mine i rub her thighs, she pulls me into her...she never said she was the best..but she proved herself to be better than the rest..proved herself to be the 'best i ever had' so we laid back on the bed with her legs spread and without taking a break..we went for round 4 instead..

the end.
shes got a big ego.

explanation

not really gonna get into detail with it - not till i cross over with her. all i gotta say is - girl got me FEEEEEEEENIN'. not a sex story, but an experience tht i hold close. "if it was close than you would keep it private" yeah & if you fools notice - you don't know anymore that nothing. i keep her kisses close with my details and i know where she puts her hands when she gets nervous & look she gives me when she really want me to keep going. im keeping it all, its not game - its special. i write about the the best ive ever had cause she is one of the most amazing people ive ever met. also cause if you know me again. u should know that i love to write.

god MUST have.

EVERY girl..

& i don't think you're beautiful

i think you're BEYOND IT.

i wish i could fuck every girl in the world.

is it right if a girl says it? im bisexual.

Drake's Performance in Toronto, May 13, 2009

and he throws a shoutout to rihanna towards the end.

"Shout Out To Rihanna. I Love You Baby"

ahaha ...chris brown is a joke ; STILL.

just a TUESDAY NIGHT...

the wendy williams show. how many of you have heard of it before? shes pretty much an honest tv personality that roughly around the edges tells you how it is, what it is & what its feena' be about. her show casted quite a few laughs from me today ; crackin brahh. & on top of that jeremih performed: birthday sex. mhm so it was ALL crackin homie. you guys are probably wondering, why the hell are you talking about a tv show? lol well cause i like watching tv shows, all but the stupid ones like steve the security guard jerry springer bullshit & the show use to be maury but now i think thats dumb too well for all the hes cheatin on me with this heffa episodes. its irritating & woman need to get men that don't have eyes for other women & women need to get their attitude & bull on a leash cause their shit is gettin crazy and outta control. the family life is good but find myself reminiscing more than usual. the homies and i are planning to do a city lights theme this weekend or whatever you wanna call it. we're gonna just go out probably to the club, go to the center, eat dinner out & then we're booking up in the hotel & we gon do it and do it well. haha sike but yah we're just gonna go out, simple is my middle name! but im excited for it. SAY IT LIKE YOU MEAN IT its the new motto - well out of many that is. as well as SAYING IT STRAIGHT LEADS TO STRAIGHT UNDERSTANDING both taken from The Wendy Williams Show - bangin`. how you doin'? so - SO FAR . im looking at whatchu know about that HILTON hotel? mhm bangin . probably do the late night shit, the late night clip & call it a good hit. just kidding idk wtf i just said but its all good homie. going out tonight too. even tho its midnight. harry potter is opening tonight. & YA'LL KNOW YAH GIRL IS TRYNA SEE THAT MR.POTTER :) fo sho. haha - soo .. & btw if no one knew now yah know and now its for sure - BUMBLEBEE IS THE NUMBERRR ONEEEE HOMIEE ! & thats just me being straight up honest & for real cause ya'll know bumblebee & owee! not to mention - shia labeouf & lets not get into the ladies. optimus prime be breakin folks off though ; gettin real with the customers talking about ahhhhh and megan fox is just the begining of the whole damn situation. ahahaha read this man..shia labeouf is walking out of the whole (on transformers 2) and he walks over to megan fox and kisses her. (me: ooo im jealous) (debbie: OF WHICH ONE?) ahaha i aint never died so much in complete silence but it was desperatley needed haha buhh my bad its just an insider . get wit it homie . the BOOSKEE J has finally hit up that new phone status. she is rolling about the area with the samsung behold spent my night putting music on her memory card & being dumbshits & the computer singing stupid shit to old school songs. ahaa that was some memories bradah ahaha ; THE JACKSONS:AN AMERICAN DREAM. may Michael Joseph Jackson Rest in Paradise. damn its been how long? damn...the king has really gone on to a better place but his music will live forever.

its ALREADY..

JULY 14TH ! damnn...its going by fast but im having a blast mane. =) me and the girls & some of my guys are discussing the thought of going on a camping trip. so im excited. lol its not exactly camping, ill call it a getaway. we're probably going to go to ocean shores, bangin brah. im coming up with a list in my head of all the things i wanna do this summer but there is a few bumps, quite more obstacles and a little irritation but my summer all in all, will go FABULOUS. this i want, believe and will have. so with this being said ; do it buddie.

this summer i wanna...
- join the game. come out with a girlfriend.
- join the game. don't come out with a boyfriend.
- make 5 new friends..
- meet 2 genuine nice people.
- continue not smoking.
- get my liscense..haha
- get a deccent paying job.
- spend a weekend with my grandmama.
- do the breast cancer walk..
- go to the top of the space needle
- go to the club 3 times
- kill a spider
- redo my bedroom. (purple? yup.)
- get a full bed.
- make steak for dinner.
- my personal favorite.
- my personal favorite.
- my personal favorite.
- my personal favorite.
- my personal favorite.

Janet Damita Jo Jackson

Janet Damita Jo Jackson

The Queen of R&B

MY IDOL

Idk why but lately i've just been taking appreciation to all the artists that have been around for awhile that have paved the way for anyone who wants to be in the music business. i'm no singer, but if anyone should know anything about me - i love to dance. its my passion. its what fills me up on an empty stomach, its what leaves my body rejuvenated for another battle, another fight for everything that i deserve in my life. i love the rhythmic move of a dancer, the way your body will flow with the exact beat of every song. whether there be a song on the stereo, or the beat of raindrops hitting the pavement. ill make music with my own to feet & the whip of hair in the seattle wind..when i close my eyes i see shoes, i see children, i see a pavement and i hear the beat. the shoes tap the pavement and its like the bass of my own mind booms with the biggest strength ive ever felt. dancing..it'll take you there. i've yet to figure out where there is but when i figure it out ill be sure to let you know. but till then, dancing and my motivation, passion, breath, life & love. the skys your limit but mines beyond it & baby ; i plan to reach it without or w/o you!

the best ive ever had..

not in love ; atleast i hope im not. just infatuated with your body. not feenin' but ill admit that you started to ease and i was beggin in my mind please dont stop, please? but as always the good times came to an end, i thought about them a lot probably the state of pleasure i was in. if you can't tell by now, its about a GIRL. theres no way a man can do game like this. 18 years of league practice ; nada homie . ima tell it like this because shes just that special to me. this is not to get confused ; shes the BEST IVE EVER HAD. shes got bangin body with lips to match. her thighs are on some crazy lock shit & she know just when to squeeze. she sucks deeper than anybody you know & put her hands in all the right places .. whatchu know about that? we'll kick it tough but crazy shit happens ; its never planned - & i really don't think either of us plan on it going down . but one of us eats, one of us wants a bite - leads to biting nails, sucking fingers, licking lips & sliding against me like im your bedsheets..i give you another bite - u suck a little lighter ; but your tongue locks down on my finger - shes sucking the juices from this food off my hand. moist...shes hella...mmm..got me thinking crazy thaangs making crazy moves..i scoot closer to you & slide a body part under your legs...you move your juices closer to my body part.. ahhhhhhhh...girl is feena' take this ride places..she squeezes on my thigh harder ; she telling me shes teasing & im looking at her close her eyes ; i can just tell what shes thinking, feeling - like an open book. i say, do you want it?...it was the best answer i never got - she turns her head and closes her eyes as she sucks her bottom lip...i throw my head back cause this girls doing something and its driving me insane. she squeezes her thighs on mine...i look at her...she squeezes tight and rubs her leg up my thigh ... DAAAAAAAAAMN! .. may not seem a lot to you but gimme a girl who knows how to do it, when to do it and just how much..woo...i slide a hand back...putting it down in places i aint never seen before. squeezes again .. i grab your hand squeezin for dear life...why you tryna giggle? my legs shakin and i look back at her again - "yeah?" "i hate you, i hope you know that." she looks at me and squeezes again...damn near falling cause her loving ceases to AMAZE ME..like i said im not in love, atleast i hope im not ; just INFATUATED with the whole damn package..she moved her legs & i maintained my posture...your games murder baby..she turned over and said i gotta..

Pt. 2 - Coming Soon.
well readers .. Maybe.

Would you ...

If you fell in love with the man/woman of your DREAMS .
Then come to find out soon or years down the line that they were born
opposite of the gender that they are now. (Tranvestite)

Would the power of love you have for them exceed the
fact that their BORN gender was different than what they are now?

Would you stay?
Would you leave?
Would love be all
you claimed it to be?

Ps. They have all the body parts.

A Male Gone Female: Cannot Birth Babys.
A Female Gone Male: Cannot Give Babys.

Would You?
I question the power of love.